French Toast

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"this EP is a sort of rough draft - it's all material that was supposed to be part of an album, but lack of time and money interfered and left me to record in four days on my laptop. so. it's just a collection of thoughts written over the last 18 months or so. I hope you enjoy it." - Dom

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released January 21, 2014

Dom played banjo, uke, guitars, melodica, rice-in-a-cup, leg-drum, vocal cords, and other miscellany. he also recorded and mixed everything and made the art.

big thank you to Joshy Squash for the loan of his instruments

special shout out to Kyle Krust and Mera for their kind words and for forcing me to not quit everything halfway through

also to everyone else for putting up with me

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Track Name: Hairbow
this song is about you darlin though I'm sure you'll never know
cause I've wrapped my feelings up and tied them tight with your hairbow

oh this song is about you darlin though I'm sure you'll never know
cause I've wrapped my feelings up and tied them tight with your hairbow
I'm afraid you'd laugh me out the door and never come again
cause I'm not man enough to be anything more than your best friend

and I'll keep myself up all night dividing every word
searching for some hidden message in this bottle that you've sailed ashore in
dreaming of the day when I can work the meaning out
be bold and unafraid, stand up tall, scream and shout

but til then I'll sit beside you and wish I wasn't lying with my presence
til then I'll wait and try to maintain some sense of ignorance

cause this song is about you darlin though I'm sure you'll never know
cause I've wrapped my feelings up and tied them tight with your hairbow

and I curse this body for being anything less than what you want
and I hate myself for daring to love, daring to want
and I'll wait another minute but then I might explode
cause I can't take another second of bearing this shameful load

and til then I'll sit beside you and wish I wasn't lying with my very presence
til then I'll wait and try to maintain some sense of ignorance

cause this song is about you darlin though I'm sure you'll never know
and I've wrapped my feelings up and tied them tight with your hairbow
Track Name: Come To Tea
wandering, whispering, don't say a word
your childish mercy's the sweetest I have heard
love me and let me belong to your smile
don't forget me, just let me live in denial

can't you believe in me, can't you realize
that I'm drowning in the puddles that collect below your eyes
and when your chest burns in anger mine fills up with despair
and crippling fear that perhaps you don't care

take me down, cause I've already fallen
your kindness kills, and it's callin

so I'll make eight cups of coffee in the hopes that you'll come to tea
and give me looks that let me know there's no place you would rather be
than sitting here at my table with two sugars and the sun
watching me gladly unravel, watching me come undone

take me down, cause I've already fallen
your kindness kills, and it's callin
callin me
Track Name: Oh Child
oh child, will you lay me down in the light of your sweet crown
oh child, will you find my heart, leave me my eyes and a running start
oh soul, bloated and black, you cannot lose the things you lack
oh soul, just let me be; let me rest, let me sleep

punish me and throw away everything I hold dear
though I bruise your fragile cheekbones hold me tight and hold me near
for I'm lost and out of place, drowning in nausea and regret
and if there's some way to stop myself I haven't found it yet

lay me down beneath the dogwood where the bark is brown with rot
let my spirit fill your ear with the things my breathing self forgot
tell me lies about my beauty, tell me truths about my sin
and I'll fool myself into thinking that we can start again

I'll light a candle for myself and a cigarette for you
sitting in the chalk outlines you left behind as you walked through
the rows of houses with a halo and veins filled with your disease
how can someone so far away still speak through these trees

I can't recall the first long whispers of your dolor in my spine
I can't remember silken fingers or the sand crushed in your eyes
I don't know the air that wrapped you trailing oil spills in the heat
but lifetimes later I can hear your voice and shoot up your defeat

and you may never know my name
but you might have saved my life
as the ashes pile around my ankles
I wonder if you're alright
are you alright?

oh child, will you burn my wrists and let the scars never exist
oh child, did you lead me here, cut my cord, and drink my tears?
oh love, never go away; let me sit, let me stay
oh love, will you let me know how you're doing buried under the snow
Track Name: Desperate
your eyes are spiderlegs that touch me and make my skin crawl
peeking in between my curtains, cornering me in the hall
prying in between my eyelids, peering deep into my brain
pushing buttons, making messes, slowly driving me insane
driving me insane

inky veins criss-cross the open sky, branches that look like arms
and you glare up at them and say through gritted teeth that surely you mean no harm
it's overcast and I can't see far enough ahead to run
blinded by your indiscretions, I am stoned and stunned

and it's hard to remember that you're just a human being
yeah it's hard to remember when you make me feel so desperately unclean
Track Name: But Why
all my gentle friends like to hear tales of what I do on the weekends
or what I did when I was younger, or the times I almost died
they like to live vicariously through all my fuckups even though
I tell them it was all just circumstances and stupidity

I was just bored and manic depressive
I'm just dumb and self destructive
but they seem to think it's cool that I'm killing myself slowly

and I don't think it's cool anymore and I don't think it's romantic
but they can't understand why I'd take their boredom over my dysfunction in a heartbeat

all my gentle friends like to tell me about how they feel caged in
by the ease of suburban living, as though I feel any different
I'm just them but apathetic with some frayed wires in my brain
could have conquered the adversities but instead I've given up

I could have outdone my parents, could have overcome genetics
guess I'm just surprised that I've survived my own poor judgement
cause most of the things I've gone through were results of masochism
or of immaturity or really really bad taste in men
and bad taste in women
and really, really, famously bad taste in friends
Track Name: Mike's In Rehab (Mikey Klosek)
I was walking alone through the valley of doubt, all my friends had flown away
so I slept in a beaten and abandoned old house and waited frustrated for day
but when day came the sky revealed her bruises and scars and from the soil water began to rise
so you and some stranger loaded me into his car and through the paved rivers we ride

and the windows were wide open and the waves crashed on in
and I started to cry but you kept up your chin
and I held your thin hand so tight that it could break
as I struggled, was juggled, and sank

I was running through a tunnel in an unfamiliar place lined with broken glass, bottles, and mold
and a strange man chased me down with a smile on his face as my heart and my innards grew cold
for in that strange man's smile was a deep embossed cruelty, a look I'm afraid I know well
with his pants undone and his laughter filthy that man chased me right down to hell

and I tripped on my own feet and slammed into the concrete
knew it was my fault as the blood pooled its soft heat
and my last dying thought was that I'm a failure
as I crumble and cry on the floor

it was dark all around me as I felt my mind wake and my body lay flat on the bed
and I thought it was my chance to stop the heartache created by thoughts in my head
so I kicked and screamed or I thought that I did, and tried to wake myself up
but my arms were like granite and lay heavy instead; my small strength just wasn't enough

and my own mind laughed at me so piercing and mean
made me feel like a prisoner, weak and unclean
and I've never felt so scared or defeated before
as I calcify on the shore
Track Name: Girl With Broken Wings (Manchester Orchestra)
I am just a human being, take my clothes off and you'll see
cut me and I swear I'll bleed, I will, I will
take the fork out of my pocket, stick it in the electrical socket
watch me say I told you so, you're burned from your head to your toes

used to listen to what I say but that was way back yesterday
it's not like that anymore now that trust has gone out the door
so I walk about my feet to leave me swallowing what tries to eat me
my feet drag right behind, my life is my own design

and I will die when I say that it's time
not from this disease I caught out on those new york streets
but I will die young, there's no doubt in that
I'm seventeen years old and I'm as beat up as my hat

but there will come a time when I will walk in a straight line
with one foot in front of the other, with my sisters and my brothers and we will dance
and we will dance oh yes we will
we will dance

I am just a human being, shave my skin off and you'll see
cut me and I swear I'll bleed I will, I will
take the knife out of my pocket, rip my arms out of their sockets
I will watch as you stab me and beg for forgiveness fallin to my knees

then I will cry cause it's not alright
when sorry isn't good enough, the consequences must be tough
but I have thought of all the pain that I've brought
it's eating me alive, I promise you darlin I am dead inside

but you revive me with the [?] in your eyes, see
now that all I do is love you, I swear darlin this is far from over

and there will come a time when I will look back on my life
and all that I've really added up
and I will look you in the eye and swear that I'm not lying
and once and for all I will be right
I will be right
no lie I will be right, no lie

I am just a human being, take my clothes off and you'll see
cut me and I swear I'll bleed I will, I will
take the dope out of my pocket, rip my arms out of their sockets
watch me say I told you so as the future begins to grow

and I surrender but there's no defeat
this fight is over, you won me
treat me well and take your time, my life is your own design
and forget what you know and watch as we grow
we have the rest of our lives to listen to each other bitch and whine
and we will die when we say that it's time
six feet under, be happy, cause darlin this is just the beginning

and there will come a time when I will walk in a straight line
with one foot in front of the other, with my sisters and my brothers and we will dance upon the ground, in love
cause this is the salvation that I never anticipated

and I will lay with her on a cloud in the sky
when we shut our eyes, we'll see those butterflies and they will dance
and they will dance, oh yes they will
they will dance

you are not a human being, I'll take your clothes off and you'll see
shut your eyes and listen to me
cause everything you touch turns green